I spent a lot of years neglecting the body and underestimating its vital role in our spiritual process. It’s literally the medium that we experience our lives through – and getting to know its tendencies as an individual is imperative to being able to understand what’s happening for us on a higher plane.
I once heard in Ayahuasca ceremony, you can only go spiritually as far as you can physically.
Levels of the Body
That includes the physical level (sleep, food, exercise, etc), the emotional level (releasing trapped emotions, allowing love in, etc), the level of the mind (keeping healthy framing, releasing belief systems and ego defenses, intent on integrity, openness to recognizing what’s happening where and what our responsibility is in it, etc) and the level of the spirit experienced in the body (intuition, ability to communicate with our true selves/spirits, ability to feel our inherent connection to God/Universe).
What Are Our Spirits Doing Here?
Personally, I believe the overall goal as a spirit coming into a human body is to allow us to actually experience the Universe through a physical medium. I’m sure it’s nice to float around the ether as a ball of unified energy (or whatever happens) but getting to be in a body, in this time warp we experience on this planet which is probably a blink since time is a human perception thing, is what lets us actually experience all of it.
All the emotions. All the tastes. All the energies. All the sex. All the love. All the sadness. All the anger. The spectrum between dark and light. All the human experience we have for this go-round on Earth (which is only a tiny portion of what is out there to be experienced.) We can’t even recognize a thing is in front of us unless we see a contrast – hence the dualistic nature of this planet. I don’t walk around thinking about air unless I almost drown. We get to feel it all, and even when that is physically or emotionally uncomfortable, our spirit is getting a chance to experience itself through the body and in relation to others.
The Natural Spiritual Development Process
The spiritual development process (which works behind the scenes regardless, just accelerated if working with the Ayahuasca Medicine or by intent alone) is basically run through the body. Learning to read its signals, the emotional energies, belief systems and defenses create the lens we see the world through. That lens creates our ‘out-picture’ (to a degree – there are also events that occur in a shared space, coming from the collective imbalance, etc – so it’s ours individually meets everyone else’s.)
Intent as the North Star
Intent is highly underrated. It seems so insignificant, but intent plus willingness to do the work becomes the north start of this whole process. I’ve got big picture intentions (align myself to as much integrity as I can, keep working the spiritual development process so that I can become as “flush” with my true spirit as possible, accept my life purpose/love offering and do what I need to do to hone those skills, etc). Those are the true north. Then I’ve got smaller ones based on whatever has presented for me to work on (at this exact moment it’s open communication, not holding feelings until they explode inappropriately, being brave when needed, etc) that are the road map as steps in that direction.
The Body Follows
What happens for me anyway, is based on the true north intention, the path presents via my body and the out-picture. Since I also have intent on recognizing patterns, my ego defenses and archetypes, belief systems, and energetic structures in the body – I see them (eventually at least.) I may notice something that needs attention coming in from the subconscious (and I may be ‘holding it’ – which is a tell in itself).
I’ll start to notice feelings around it (which alerts me that there is something to look at) or triggers on a similar thing in the out-picture. Note that irritation and a trigger are different. The person or situation it’s about (justified or unjustified) is not the trigger – it’s the catalyst.
The Trigger Inside
The trigger is inside the body, and plucks a deeper chord usually down to the roots of a much larger picture and often creates an ego defensive response (arrogance, anger, etc) in order to protect wounds or fears. They’re the red flags that there is something beneath the surface that needs attention.
No matter how it got there, the only person with the ability to heal it is the willingness of the person who has it in their body (which kind of sucks sometimes because there’s a lot of injustice that happens, but it’s a carbon body thing. It does bring back power to the person once they realize they’re in charge of healing it though – good thing.)
I often get what I call “Divine set-ups” to provoke what needs to be triggered (and it’s not always “negative” things – sometimes they are amazing). The triggered emotion can purge/release if the person lets it and doesn’t try to “hold”, deflect, rationalize or stuff it back into the body. It just gets felt and comes out. But there are likely belief system structures and trapped emotions deeper down that rabbit hole – but at least you know where to look.
Noticing Themes and Movement
When I’m in an active purging process at home, I start to notice themes. What’s going on in my world. What have I been triggered by lately? Then as I move through the process of investigating the rabbit hole, I find the resonant thing (I feel it like a ‘click’ – like an epiphany in the body) allow those trapped feelings to be felt as much as I can (they often purge out overnight in dreams and I’ll “wake up with shit” too.)
Sometimes once one emotion purges, there’s another layer underneath (sadness is often under anger for example) so the next day the newly uncovered layer may purge. It does it on its own if you stay open to it (it’s not particularly comfortable, but whatever.)
As the process continues, it sometimes feels like the energetic ‘tectonic plates’ have shifted, and something feels different. Lighter maybe. Viewpoint inherently widened, so the emotional body is less reactive due to perception.
The Bigger Picture Keeps Unveiling
It’s been roughly 15 years since I dove deep into this journey, and it never ceases to amaze me. The amount of full circles uncovering what were truly old intuitions that the timing had not lined up for yet. The levels of growth and uncovered belief systems that keep presenting as the journey continues. The levels of clarity and strength that I could’ve never imagined accessible to me.
A More Loving Approach to Spiritual Development
I’m also experiencing, for the first time ever, what it can really look like to not do this work “the hard way.” I had to boot camp it from where I was, due to the arrogant nature of my control-freak ego. It worked to get me here, but since setting sights on learning to ride this flow process and allow the experience to me more gentle, more loving, and even more fun, it’s accelerated at a pace I could never have imagined from my old vantage point (and I haven’t even been in ceremony in over a year.)
The levels beyond what we can see physically, and is common to the human experience are there. The fluidity of the process can be truly magical. We don’t control it, but we accept the work given to us at a given time – be it uncomfortable or seemingly unrelated (as it all seems to come full-circle eventually.) Some of it may be the collective timing of the human process, some of it might be just my world. All I know, is that learning to listen and actually act when my body (including the mind, intuition, etc) presents an opportunity to pay attention, learn, grow, purge, release, crumble structures, etc – it more efficient than anything I could come up with.
Accepting the Carbon Bodies
Sometimes this carbon body earth thing can be a bitch. In the same breath, sometimes it can allow us to experience higher planes of pure magic and love. And I’m sure as hell not trying to stop that flow.
Keep going. Keep loving yourself through the process (check out Matt Kahn’s work if you need a boost with that.) Keep letting go. Keep feeling the energetic difference between your true spirit and your ego defenses. And keep flowing.
It’s so worth it. It’s always been worth it.
Big love everyone:)