Man, sometimes it's hard to fathom how these processes work. But they do. If you want the background as to how the Universe set this space up, click HERE. My Judgements on "Femininity" So the pieces that I had gotten so far in this round of processing had to do with my judgement against what I considered to be "femininity" (way deeper than I realized) and deep-seated insecurity protected by a thick-ass energetic structure of 'rescuer' archetype applied to relationships (creating unhealthy co-dependency as a pattern.) Also a theme since puberty of chasing and longing for unavailable men. The femininity piece clarified in a way I hadn't seen before. I've historically prided myself on not being a "girlie girl" (a huge tell in itself) and … [Read more...] about Crumbling Massive Structures: Co-Dependence and Femininity
Ayahuasca Apprenticeship Personal Journals
Personal journals of Meghan Shannon Elder's Ayahuasca Apprenticeship (mostly in a small village in the Peruvian Amazon) broken up into four phases.
Phase One: Initiation into Ayahuasca Apprenticeship (Summer 2007 - Summer 2008)
Phase Two: Deep into Ayahuasca Apprenticeship Between the Amazon and Home (Summer 2008 - Summer 2011). Averaging six month in Peru each year, co-running the Infinite Light center with the shaman
Phase Three: Ayahuasca Apprenticeship at Home (without Ceremony) : Ground-Level Society Consciousness Work (Summer 2011 - Winter 2017)
This is the period in my life where I had become unexpectedly pregnant with a new relationship, and was out of physical Medicine ceremony for nearly six years (with one exception). This time was the toughest of all, moving through becoming a new parent, new marriage, then new divorce. The 'on the ground' training of navigating the truth of who I am while living under western consciousness constructs. The Medicine supported me spiritually the entire time.
Phase Four: Ayahuasca Apprenticeship Integration: Full Circle (Winter 2017 - current)
This is the period of pay-off, where everything I've experienced along the way continues to come into full-circle clarity. All the previous phases were preparation until now, when I'm finally prepared to step into the next level of my life purpose offering. This starts with Beyond the Ceremony, a place to go for preparation, integration and spiritual development support on the Ayahausca Medicine Path, from a team of people who get it. The future is wide open, and I can't wait to see how it unfolds:)
Sharing the Process Back in the day when I spent five years in the Amazon undergoing my Ayahuasca shamanic apprenticeship, one of the clearest messages I ever received was that one of the areas I can be of most support to people on similar journeys was to simply share my process. Don't need to teach, don't need to have all the answers, don't even have to always be right in my perception of something (lest I learn more about it later.) So I blogged. At times, being that vulnerable was harder than my ego preferred. Pieces were embarrassing, pieces I assumed would be judged or not understood in context, and pieces were messy (per usual for this spiritual journey we're all on.) But no one is born a guru, with some magical line into the … [Read more...] about Personal Spiritual Development Journals Return: The Whirlwind of Accelerated Learning, Healing and Unconditional Love
I spent a lot of years neglecting the body and underestimating its vital role in our spiritual process. It's literally the medium that we experience our lives through - and getting to know its tendencies as an individual is imperative to being able to understand what's happening for us on a higher plane. I once heard in Ayahuasca ceremony, you can only go spiritually as far as you can physically. Levels of the Body That includes the physical level (sleep, food, exercise, etc), the emotional level (releasing trapped emotions, allowing love in, etc), the level of the mind (keeping healthy framing, releasing belief systems and ego defenses, intent on integrity, openness to recognizing what's happening where and what our responsibility is … [Read more...] about Carbon Bodies
What is Spiritual Arrogance? I know - the scary, sensitive, defense-producing sound of the word arrogance (especially when it's aimed at us.) Add 'spiritual' in front of it, and many of us are defending the truth of who we are at all cost, down to the very core of our being. Except - we're not. We're defending our perception that someone else can't see us clearly. That someone thinks we might not be who we really are. Worse, that they think we're full of shit or (gasp!) that we don't know what we're talking about. We're not defending our spirit (all of our higher selves are badasses and way past that shit.) Let's be real - we're defending our insecurity. Arrogance, as an aspect of the defense system we call as a unit "ego", is a … [Read more...] about Is the Blind Spot of Spiritual Arrogance Slowing Our Process?
Whew - it's been awhile since I posted an oldschool blog. Part of me wishes I could've kept up with it during this massive five year process, part of me knows that I just couldn't. Sometimes you have to experience something in it's entirety, without commentary about it (especially before the 20/20 hindsight kicks in!) Long story short - in 2007 I began my Ayahuasca shamanic apprenticeship (which turned into co-running the Infinite Light Peru) which lasted until I became pregnant in 2011. I completed nearly 250 ceremonies in the Amazon with a Peruvian shaman, assisting others in the same process. This was the perfect compliment to the two year intensive Spiritual Development training I had completed at Inner Visions Institute (under … [Read more...] about Where Has Meghan Been?